The
first time Thea became aware of the possibility of something more to life than
polishing her school shoes on Sunday nights, remembering to feed her goldfish
Fred every day and trying to keep up with Mrs Pritchett’s horrid times table quizzes
was when she walked into a library. There were large mobiles swaying from the
ceiling, each featuring characters and scenes from Roald Dahl books. Her eyes
were drawn to the large text dangling below a depiction of The Minpins: “Those who don’t believe in magic will never find it.”
The quirky lettering seemed to mock Thea, as if to say that she’d never
believed, had she? From that moment on, she became determined to find magic by
believing in it almost as hard as she believed in Father Christmas, the Tooth
Mouse and the Easter Bunny. Except for one small thing: whenever Thea tried to
tell anyone about her magical mission, people laughed. They scoffed, called her
childish and ridiculous and taunted her for voicing her vision to them. She
began to wish she had never set foot in that stupid library and seen that quote,
and who was dumb old Dahl anyway? What did he know about magic? He was making
it all up. He was a liar.
She
hardened herself to that kernel of hope and innocence that the idea of finding
magic had brought and, in time, pushed away the memory of her visit to the
library. Until, some months later, when her grandmother came to stay. Thea had
never met her grandmother before, and her arrival rattled her parents, who
retreated to the garden shed to have stage whisper rows while Grandma Iris
stirred sugar into her tea on the front porch. There was something different
about her grandmother: she looked old, with her grey hair and knitted shawls,
but her eyes possessed a youthful glimmer and a spark of curiosity that made
Thea want to look away.
“How
old are you, Thea?”
“I’m twelve,
Grandma.”
Her grandmother
nodded. “I thought as much.”
Thea
blinked at her, waiting for clarification that never came.
“Did
your parents really never tell you about me?”
She
shook her head.
“They
never believed, you see.”
“Believed
in what?”
“Magic.”
The
strangest feeling came over Thea then, as though the kernel of hope and
innocence was germinating within her.
“I
don’t know if I believe in it either,” she said. “I tried to once, but everyone
laughed at me.” Her eyes widened in surprise as her grandmother let out a
chuckle.
“People
always laugh and jeer at things they don’t understand.”
“Really?”
“Oh,
yes. But I suppose that’s for the best. If everyone believed in magic then it
wouldn’t be special anymore. It would be as commonplace as polishing your
school shoes on a Sunday night.”
Thea’s
eyes widened. Her grandmother tapped the side of her nose and winked at her.
“So
it’s real? Magic is real?”
“Oh,
yes. If you want it to be.”
The
frowned. “I did want it to be real. I wanted to find it, like Roald Dahl wrote
in that book. But I couldn’t.”
“Did
you believe?”
“Oh,
yes! Just like I believed in Father Christmas and the Easter Bunny.”
“Well,
that explains it then.”
“It
does?”
“Real
magic is far bigger than that small fry Easter Bunny. Real magic is something
you experience when you feel joy rising up in you and you laugh out of sheer
happiness. Real magic is noticing the ordinary things that happen every day
that make life that much more special.”
Thea
was frowning again.
“When
last did you watch a sunrise, Thea? Or really look at a rainbow? How long has
it been since you wished on a star?”
“I
can’t remember,” she mumbled.
“You
see, the magic was right there; you didn’t see it.”
“But
that’s not magic, Grandma. That’s ordinary stuff you see in nature.”
Grandma
Iris smiled, and took a sip of her tea. “If you say so.”
Thea
stomped inside after that, more confused than before. Just when it felt like
she might get the answer, her grandmother stopped talking and got a mysterious
look on her face. Why didn’t grown-ups ever explain what they meant? A noise
from the shed made Thea lean out of her bedroom window. She could hear her
parents debating how to get rid of her grandmother because she was a bad
influence, and for once Thea agreed with them.
She
didn’t know how long she had been asleep when she felt a knitted shawl tickle
her arm.
“Wake
up, darling. We’re going to find some magic.”
“But
it’s almost supper time.”
“Well,
yes, but I sent your parents out and they won’t be back until later. Please
come with me. I promise you won’t regret it.” She retrieved a waxed paper
parcel from her shawl and handed it to Thea. “This should tide you over until
we get there.”
“Where
are we going?”
“It’s
a surprise.”
The
surprise, as it turned out, involved a long walk up a hill behind the village.
Her grandmother had driven them to the foot of the hill and announced that the
surprise was at the summit. She had a strange feeling about it, but her
curiosity got the better of her and she followed behind.
“Quickly,
darling, the sun is going down and it’s about to start.”
Her
cries of “What is?” got lost in a gust of wind that swept around them. She
jogged to catch up to her grandmother, who was standing, staring.
“There,
Thea. Look.”
She
followed her grandmother’s gaze to a clearing, squinting at the last rays of
the sun. There, below the tree line, she made out a circle of stones.
“It’s
the Wishing Circle,” said her grandmother, answering her silent question. “That’s
where the magic happens. Whatever you wish for in the centre of those stones
must come true if you believe in it with all your heart.” She glanced at the
sky. “But we must hurry. The sun will be gone soon.” She took Thea’s hand and
led her to the centre of the stones. “Do as I do, Thea, and every time we raise
our arms, send your wishes to the heavens. All right?”
She
nodded.
Grandma
Iris began to dance, her arms outstretched and her shawl undulating in the wind
as she moved. Thea tried to copy every step and concentrated on sending up her
wishes every time she raised her arms. She could have sworn music was playing,
but it could have been a trick of the wind in the trees. They danced and moved
in the circle and finally stood, arms aloft, as the sun disappeared behind the
horizon. Thea was breathless, but happy. She had sent her wishes skywards and
knew that all this dancing and swaying must mean they had a good chance of
coming true.
“Let’s
go home, Thea. You must be famished.” Her grandmother squeezed her shoulder. “You
did well tonight. I am proud of you.” They walked back down the hill in
silence.
When
they reached the car, Thea said, “Did you ever bring mummy and daddy here?”
Her
grandmother smiled. “No. You’re the first.” She locked eyes with Thea. “You’re
the first because you believe.”
Thea
wasn’t sure what that meant, but smiled anyway. It was all she could do to
contain the exhilaration bubbling in her chest. “Can we go there again,
Grandma? It was magical.”
“I
thought you didn’t believe in magic.”
“This
was different. I felt it.”
“That’s
because we were at The Gathering.”
“What’s
‘The Gathering’?”
“It’s
when two or more people dance, like we did, and send up wishes to the heavens.
That’s when the real magic begins. Our dancing and wishes raise the energy
around us and then whatever we wish for must come true.”
“Do
other people do this as well, Grandma, or just you?”
“The
Gatherings happen all over, darling.”
“But
what if there aren’t two people at The Gathering? Won’t your wishes come true,
then?”
“They
do. It sometimes takes a bit longer. The more people you have at The Gathering,
the faster things tend to happen.”
Thea
nodded, although she wasn’t entirely sure she understood. “Can I tell you what
I wished for, Grandma?”
“Only
when it comes true. Now, what shall we have for supper?”
Some
days later, strange things began to happen to Thea. She found she could recall
all her times tables easily, much to Mrs Pritchett’s annoyance. Her goldfish
rose up to greet her when she fed him and her school shoes never scuffed, so
her Sunday nights were polish-free. Her parents no longer squabbled about her
grandmother, and they all laughed together around the table at mealtimes.
Things were going well. Too well.
“Don’t
do that, Thea.”
“What,
Grandma.”
“Don’t
start questioning the magic. It’s shy and disappears as soon as it feels
unwelcome.”
She swallowed. “How did you know, Grandma.”
She swallowed. “How did you know, Grandma.”
Iris
smiled. “I know many things, dear. Just remember what I said.”
It
took time, but Thea learnt to welcome magic into her life. She was open to
whatever it brought her, and her wishes came true more often than not. Little
things she thought she had no control over suddenly started going her way.
Nobody picked her last for sports teams anymore, her mother remembered that she
liked the red cup for her tea and Julian started to notice her existence. She
knew all this was because of the magic.
“It’s
so unfair,” she heard Denise say in the girls’ cloakroom one break. “Thea gets
everything she wants and it’s not like she even deserves it. I mean, look at
her. Who does she think she is?”
The
balloon of hope burst in her chest and her shoulders slumped. For the first
time in ages, her eyes burnt with tears.
After
that, things went wrong for Thea. She forgot the fifteen times table after
fifteen times four, and Mrs Pritchett made fun of her in front of the whole
class. Then, as she was walking home, Julian tripped her and she fell into a large
puddle of mud.
“Thea,
you are so clumsy,” she heard Denise say, as she crooked her arm around Julian’s
and walked up the road with her friends.
When
Thea finally made it to her house, she was caked in mud and miserable.
“What
happened, darling?” Her grandmother was in her usual spot on the porch,
stirring her tea.
“Everything!”
wailed Thea. She relayed the conversations she’d overheard and the ridicule and
shame she’d felt.
Her
grandmother chuckled. “Don’t you see, darling? Denise is jealous of you. She
doesn’t have the magic. And are you really that weak that you will let a silly
tart like her get you down?” She stroked Thea’s cheek, smearing the mud. “Sometimes
these things happen, but they almost always have nothing to do with us. Your
job is to remember that magic that is in you and to act like a duck to whatever
anyone else says: let it wash over you.”
“But
I can’t, Grandma,” sobbed Thea. “It’s too hard. They all hate me and think I am
clumsy and...”
“Do
you think you are clumsy? Or undeserving?”
Thea
sniffed. “No. It wasn’t my fault Julian tripped me. And I know the wishes came
true because I asked for them, so I must have deserved them, mustn’t I?”
“Clever
girl. So, you see, there’s a lesson in this for you.”
“What’s
that?” Thea rubbed her nose on her sleeve.
“Those
who don’t believe in magic will never find it.”
Years
later, Thea stood at her grandmother’s grave. The mist was rolling in, and in
the distance a rainbow linked the hill to the valley. As much as she tried, she
couldn’t be sad. Grandma Iris had taught Thea the most important lesson of her
life, and she knew that some of the magic her grandmother had would always live
on in her. She smiled in spite of the mourning around her and when she stepped
forward to throw a fistful of rose petals on the coffin, she whispered, “I have
found it, Grandma. I have finally found it.”
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